| Thursday, December 19th, 2002 |
| 9:41 am |
wow
It has been a long time but this live journal thing seems to be the most popular thing ever created so I guess I can update every now and then. Just wanted to say what up to everyone. |
| Thursday, June 7th, 2001 |
| 4:16 am |
well
You know what. I have been really busy trying to find a job and things like that and my life is a real big mess really but I miss my friends. I haven't done anything with anyone yet. I may start lifting with the guys but I really don't know alot of info about it. My birthday is monday and I am busy this weekend but sunday I want to do something with all my boys or even monday if its possible. I mean everyone who isn't doing anything. Pete, Dustin, Nick, Ben, Ethan, Pat,Tyler, dave, chris, and everyone else. You should know who you are. I miss all you guys and I just want to do something soon with you all. I have been reading everyones journal and it seems that things are good for everyone. I am happy they are going well. Give me a call and let me know about this sunday or monday or anyday you guys want to do something. I am sure you guys are just as busy as I am but I hope to hang out with you all soon. I hope things keep going well for everyone. |
| Thursday, May 31st, 2001 |
| 1:28 am |
Well I finally got a job at the YMCA. I will be working with kids. I think it will be fun. Even though the kids are from the ghetto and I will probably lose my mind. I think it might be a great experience for me. I think soomeone should have one of those things they always have when everyone is home. You know what I am talking about.I haven't seen anyone really since I have been back. |
| Monday, May 21st, 2001 |
| 2:54 am |
Well still don't have a job yet but hopefully that will change soon. I still haven't done anything one here yet. Kind of depressing. I hope everyone remembers little ol stephon. Pete, dave and dustin give me a call tom. I want to lift 894-9062 who cares. Call me as soon as you guys figure out what time. Nothing to interesting has been going on. That I can write about at least. I got trashed with valerio and john south and buck and those guys. It was a great time. saturday night was crazy. brads intire street was filled with people. Everyone was partying. Some idiots took a couch and set it on fire in the middle of the rode. A taxi tried to get through but before it did like 20 or so people tried to climb on top of it. Everyone was screaming riots. then the fire trucks came and blocked everyone in and sprayed water straight up in the air and we all got wet. Like 20 cop cars came and they tried to get everyone to leave. Everyone ended up at the corner of the street which is where brads house is. 10 or 15 of them tried to tip a car over. Right infront of brads house. They couldn't though but the car ended up in the middle of the street. It was just crazy. We saw cops spraying mase at people and hitting people with there clubs. It was hilarious. |
| Wednesday, May 16th, 2001 |
| 2:26 am |
Whats up
Whats Up everyone. I hope everyone school year either went well or is going well. I am home for the summer. I don't know how long though I would like to get an apt. in Kentucky but you know how that goes. I didn't do anything tonight. I hate the ghetto. It really upsets me when I look into the some of these kids eyes but I have no place else to go. This weekend is the big play I have been hearing so much about. I am going to go so if anyone wants to go let me know. |
| Wednesday, April 25th, 2001 |
| 1:44 am |
Does anyone wonder sometimes about who their real friends are. Like who would do anything for you when you needed it most. How many people wouldn't help you. When you say hi to a friend or hang out with a friend or what not. Is that person going to be there for you when you need him or her. How do you trust people. They can tell you whatever they want or they can seem so nice and trustworthy. But sometimes the sweetest dog in the world bites for no known reason. Who can you turn to. How do you know you can trust someone. |
| Tuesday, April 10th, 2001 |
| 7:03 am |
Hey
Well...Its been a really long time since the last time I updated my journal. I hope everything is going well for everyone. Its seven in the morning and I am awake. I have been awake all night. Its been like that for like two or three weeks now. It sucks. I have class at noon. Nothing really new in my life right now. I am thinking about running for vice president in my fraternity but thats about it. I will be home this weekend so if anything is going on let me know. |
| Wednesday, August 9th, 2000 |
| 2:44 am |
hey
Well. I am off to school in 10 days. That is unreal. I am excited but not at the same time. As far as the women situation. It is still women and not woman. I will never learn. Went boating with ty and pat and his friend. It was the best time I think I have ever had. It was awsome. We jumped from this thing called 76falls. it is 76 feet above the water. It was the best rush feeling I have ever had. family reunion is this weekend. should be interesting. LOL still need alot of things for school but everything is coming together. talked to brooke demoulin today. I wish I could have seen her but I couldnt' I don't think anyone knew how close her and I were. I kept alot of secrets at EHS. well thats all |
| Tuesday, August 1st, 2000 |
| 9:50 pm |
wow
I met my roommate today. He seems cool as hell. i am excited. I spent the day with kim at northgate mall and I found the bookbag of my dreams. I am excited. The paper NKU sent me wasn't the official award for financial aid and I didnt' fill something out right so I have to pay for my first semester. My uncle won't be happy with that. When I get the aid they reembers(or however you spell it) me so thats good. stephanies parents let her come up her and chill with me last night. It was a fun time. Things between kim and i are going really good making it really hard for me to make a decision. I can't wait to leave but at the same time I am afraid. to all you people that don't know Chris vance is an awsome actor. the show was awsome but his little part was my favorite. I am glad I got to see everyone and for everyone it pretains to I will be at petes party so I hope to see you there because i leave the next morning. the show was awsome congratulations to all you guys exspecially to chris, nick, ben, chelsea,josh ,melissa, and whoever else I know that I am forgetting. you guys were really awsome. later |
| Saturday, July 29th, 2000 |
| 1:51 pm |
HEY EVERYONE
ITS ALMOST TIME FOR EVERYONE TO GO TO SCHOOL WHETHER IT BE COLLEGE OR HIGH SCHOOL WHATEVER. I THINK WE SHOULD ALL GET TOGETHER AND DO SOMETHING MAYBE HAVE A PARTY OR SOMETHING. EVERYONE THAT READS THIS AND IS INTERESTED GIVE ME SOME DATES WHEN YOU ARE AVAILABLE OR SOMETHING.I HOPE TO SEE EVERYONE BEFORE THEY GO I WAS THINKING ONE DAY DURING THE WEEK BEFORE SATURDAY AUG 19 WHICH IS THE DAY I LEAVE. PLEASE LET ME KNOW. I MISS EVERYONE LATER |
| 12:10 am |
well
Well last night was fun. I went to ciceroes with Ethan, carrie and her friend. On the way down there this drunk guy saw me talking to someone I knew about blowpops and automatically ASSumed that I was harrasing her. HMM.A black man in trenton at a gas station talking to a white girl. He must be harrasing her. unbelievable people. I usually am not affected by that at all but I almost kicked his ass in the middle of the gas station. But I looked to good and I didnt' want to get dirty. the club was fun. Ethan and carrie danced the whole night. I mean the whole night. Something is going to happen there i hope. I think Ethan deserves to be happy and carrie is perfect for him. It will happen I think. Stephanie was there and she was drunk, fun but not fun. She thought i was cheating on her with carrie's friend. Unbeleivable. 5 or 6 girls came up and talked to me while I am arguing with stephanie and she thinks I am cheating on her with jen or whatever her name was. she finally got over it or just forgot what we were arguing about. after that it was fun. crowded but fun. Stephanie was supposed to come over today but she couldn't. Why because she asked her parents and they said no. they still don't approve of the interracial relationship. I have to talk to her mom and dad. thats what they told stephanie. I should be the most racist prick but I am not. I can't understand why anyone wouldn't like me. I rarley have a problem with anyone you know. I honestly think that I can get any racist person to like me. I just don't understand. How can someone be so against something they have no clue about. but its life and i will go through it for the rest of my life. because i am black. how depressing is that. I am one of the coolest black person you will ever get to know. But Because i had to say black person and not white I don't get the oppurtunity to be happy. well we will see how this goes and hopefully they will understand that I am an exception. |
| Tuesday, July 25th, 2000 |
| 1:10 am |
hey
StphnLust: let the colors of our skin justify nothing but being human and let our freedom be ours. let a place in our hearts be unoccupied in hopes of another races filling it. Let our rights as humans be our rights as humans and not as black and white rights. Let the kkk come to a black family reunion and let the black panthers help promote john deer tractors and accessories......stephon luster. I like white women better than I like black ones.LOL.Who would have guessed. Because of the color of my skin,not because of how I act or what I believe,but because of my skin tone,something so simple,I am denied the chance to be with the people I want to be with. Not because of the girl but because of there family. People have the right to believe what they want but there can be acceptions to things. People deserve a chance. Everyone does and until we as a society realize that we are going to stay the same in terms of racism. I love you, you all know who you are later. |
| Sunday, July 16th, 2000 |
| 11:56 pm |
Another boring day. I went to church with tyler and his family. I hate eating with classy white people. You have to be so nice and neat and we were eating chicken. I don't know if you know how black people eat chicken but if you don't i will tell you.sloppy. we get the grease everywhere. ty's mom is so proper when it comes to eating. they take a bite, chew like 300 times and swallow. then there is a period for like three minutes or so when they aren't eating. we people of color eat and dont stop eating until everything on our plates is gone. I am glad I didn't go to flordia. I wish I didn't talk e into going but oh well. I hope he is having a good time. My mom will be able to go the hospital now. I am excited. college in a month I am scared to death. |
| Wednesday, July 12th, 2000 |
| 2:00 pm |
LOL
its funny how people out there think they are so important to someone. For some reason they think that there are people that can't live without them. LOL thats hilarious. friends are supposed to be friends. and close friends are supposed to be close friends and best friends, well you get the point. but people change and so does their ego's. Now riddle me this. How do you use something or someone that you don't need. Everyone can be replaced. Just as quick as they can change. LOL people are hilarious. i guess we all have people in our life that are not as close to us as we think and we aren't as close to others as they think. Some people can't live without causing a little drama or fighting with someone. Their life has to be like some sort of t.v. show. LOL I thought friends were supposed to be there for one another. I thought girlfriends were supposed to be thier for thier man and vise versa or however you spell it. I think we need to think real hard before we start making people important in our life. But never, never be in the position to need someone because they will be there 2weeks or 2 years but sooner or later they won't. Be carefull boys and girls be real carefull |
| Monday, July 10th, 2000 |
| 10:53 pm |
yes
Yes yes yes, I learned how to ski today boys and girls. I do believe I was the first black guy in southwestern ohio to ski in brookville. yes yes yes it was awsome. Went boating today with tyler, patrick, zane and danielle. it was awsome. got a little black but oh well i will get lighter. LOL well when you spend the day with tyler and pat you talk about religion. is it just me or do you think they try to force their religion on other people. I hate talking about religion. Isn't it funny how god makes some people go through tougher things in their life than others. I mean some people out there think that their problems are so bad and god is just treating them wrong when someone else would kill for their life. I know I know god is testing us and he is trying to see where our faith is right. and he doesn't put us through things we can't handle right. bullshit boys and girls bullshit. I don't think any one of us are right or wrong for that matter. Everything we go through is supposed to make us become closer with god. Then why do I feel like he never listens to me. Why should I be this big saint when it just gets harder than it already was before hand. He doens't hear me. I can't deal with the deck of cards he gave me. but he can't hear that. I am not asking for any fucking pitty but listen to me man. I can't handle my life and I need god but he isn't there for me. I have come before him time and time again ready to give up everything for the opportunity to be heard by the all mighty. Where is he when I need him. Oh he comes when he is ready not when you want him to right. I have been waiting all my life and where has he been. Sitting in the same chair watching my life like a TV show. Watching not Listening. I can't handle my life. I need god but what do I do. The same thing i have been doing all my life. wait for god to hear me. IF he could just ease up just a little bit you know. I don't want nor need anyones pitty. Thats not what this is about. i just am sick and tired of hearing everyones perspective about religion and how i should be or whatever when their life is cake compared to mine and others.And what people go through is definitly related to what and who they believe in and how much they believe in it. I believe there is a god and he is an awsome one but I think he over estimates people. I don't think he hears absolutly everyone. IF I am acting alittle strange towards everyone I want to apologize right now. I am not taking anything out on you on purpose.I am going through some things that are really tough for me to handle. i am sorry i don't know whats going to happen with me and my life but I hope god hears me soon and I hope I am ready to hear him. see you guys later |
| Wednesday, July 5th, 2000 |
| 1:29 am |
well
I spent the day with my family today yeah.ppppp. they haven't seen them in like two months and all they have done is bitch at me. I want to do things for myself and they think i will fail. fuck them. I watched the fire works by myself today. You know what I thought about the whole time. i thought about society today and how they faught so bad for our freedom as a nation or whatever. our society today is so diverse and thats what they wanted isn't it. for people to be free, free to be what they want. Well with that freedom came racism and sexism and a whole bunch of bull shit. I maybe we should have had organized freedom. Today society is terrible. I hate my family, all they do is talk shit and I can't say anything back because they pay for my college. I wish they would leave me the fuck alone and I wish everyone would get off my back. damn. I swear when college is over I am giving all of them the middle finger. twice. no three times thats not cosher with black people these days. i am babysitting right now. I am haveing a blast she is so cute. she plays with me and I dont; think she knows there is a such thing as serious time when she is with me and thats cool. but getting her to go to sleep was a difficult task. Kim and I are doing much better. she just told me she hates me but she just playin. stephanie wants me to call her tonight and that wont happen I think wait yes it will i think wait i am not sure anyway and thats stephons black soap opera for today. later |
| Tuesday, July 4th, 2000 |
| 3:15 am |
Well
It has been awhile. Nothing new to report really. I saw fire works in fairfield the other day up close. It was awsome. I have never been that close before. Kim and I are doing alot better. she won't change her mind about something important to me but She has to live with it not me so oh well. I love her. As much as I don't want to admit it. She is so perfect for me realistically. True Commitment scares me. I like stephanie but she will probably turn out to be a really close friend. Which will come in handy. I would like to continue the relationship I have with her but I don't know. I am just going to be with both of them until one of them grows apart from me. If you can understand that.That is the conclusion i came up with. My heart wants both of them. Patrick Bussel explains it best.No plans for tomorrow. I hope that changes. Thats about it. |
| Friday, June 30th, 2000 |
| 3:59 am |
Well well well
Ah yes boys and girls. I will never tell the story for starters. don't ask. I am offically a black man. yes yes yes yes. It was great. ment alot more to me than anything ever has though. I really like stephanie. where we will go from here is up for grabs I guess she wants to here those three forbidden words from me and I don't know if I can because of kim. I hope my earlier entry didn't hurt any of my close friends but I am sure you know who you are and I am sure you know if that pretains to you or not. ciceroes was fun. So many girls talked to me. I am glad I bought that jacket type thing from J.Crew. its nice. I can't wait to start school down there. I know it will be tough because stephanie will be closer but I am a womanizer and a good one at that. thats right everyone I am not the victim. o well. I will learn. I dont' want to offend any girls though so if you read this I am sorry but what ever you do don't judge me before you know everything. Well thats about it. Off to persian kitty not really ..............Okay really later |
| Thursday, June 29th, 2000 |
| 1:01 pm |
well
I haven't updated in a while. Sorry to all my fans. you know I, people think they know who I am. People think they have me and my sorry ass life figured out and they don't. They think that everything is so simple and all I have to do is this this this and this. fuck you. I am sick of people judgeing me and they don't know what the fuck they are talking about. I am tired of friends who aren't really that close of a friend but they think they are. I am tired of people who are so serious at sometimes and joke around at others make up your mind. I am sick of people dicking me over for girls. I am sick of my fucking family, get off my back you bastards. I am ready to get the hell out of here man. Before any of you pass judgement on me know the situation first. thats A. B, you have know right to pass judgement on me in the first place. if you have so much time on your hands you need to take a look at you life you fucking loser.I am going to stop talking and do something about these fucks who think I won't because I will and have no problem doing it. I am tired of phone calls at 1 oclock in the afternoon. I am tired of friends not being friends. I am tired of everything. I am tired of putting myself in bad situations. I am tired of not being able to drive. I am tired of making these horrible decisions. I am tired of playing with girls emotions. I am tired of Kim. I am tired of Stephanie. I am tired of both Michelles. I am tired of Beth. I am tired of Amy. I am tired of women. Fuck this |
| Saturday, June 24th, 2000 |
| 3:52 am |
holy shi....
today I lifted, that was nice. Pete is getting huge really. I am proud of him. afterwards I went swimming at one of kims friends house hahaha good time. kims friend has the biggest boobies. lol after that I took a trip to sallys and got some things. fuck you pete :-). went to ciceroes with stephanie. good good time LOl kim left the house right before stephanie got here. scary time for me but I got through it. hahaha it was just me and stephanie on the ride home. we SAT in the car for like an hour. good good time. I relieved some stress heh heh heh. i am so close to being black but its not about that anymore. I am going to tell kim about stephanie as soon as I get done updating my journal. scary I doubt I will do it though. you guys know me. thats it for all you stephon's livejournal fans hahaha its a real life soup opera called THE WHITE BLACK STRUGGLE its about a black guy who doesnt' know he is black. he is getting there though stay tuned hahaha |
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